I would like to be a person who is fundamentally happy. By being this, I am aware that I must constantly make sure I am making myself and others happy by giving generously with no expectations of returns. I would like to be extremely successful in my career, as I have worked many many many many years for it, and I believe my pay off is now due - I can feel it on the horizon and I know that it will be abundant in nature. I would like to be a calm and peaceful person, someone who is unfazed by anything negative, petty or childish in life. Even the things that are genuinely distressful, I would like to have a calm, quiet inner strength that is impervious to any penetration of negative vibrations. This is how I intend on becoming a happy person, by maintaining my core - even when my exterior world is vigorously shaking. I want to be kind in the face of anger, patient in the face of aggression, understanding in the presence of sorrow, and laugh at myself when I get it wrong. I would like to be a wonderful lover - to the man I end up with, I want to be kind, gentle, faithful, devoted, enduring, loving and above all, I would like to give of myself all that I could possibly give, without the fear that it would or could be unrequited. I want him to know how deeply devoted I am to him, and to feel loved like he never has before. I want to devote myself to the betterment of other people, to my husband, to myself, to my future children, to people I know and love, and to strangers around the world. I want to contribute in the ending of suffering, I want to feed someone who is starving, clothe someone who is naked and help someone who is sick. I want to do that and then do it a million times over again. When the time comes, I want to be the best possible mother that I know I can be. I want to tell my children that I love them everyday and I want to do everything in my power to make sure that they know this, and to provide them the best possible life in this world of utter chaos. I want to be there for my children through every moment life throws at them, good and bad, and I want to be a rock for them, a mentor, a giver of love and a pillar of strength. I want to spend a lifetime inspiring people - as many people as I possibly can. I want to provide them something that changes their lives for the better, a song, a quote, anything that can reinforce their being and nourish their soul. Anything that speaks to them deeply. I want to be a voice for people who do not have a voice. I want to stand up for those who are too afraid to stand up for themselves. I want to be a person who understands all sides of every story and emotion, and respects all humans, all animals, all life, and this universe, in knowing that my very existence on this planet, the mere fact that I am breathing as I write this, is an utterly phenomenal blessing. Above all, when the time comes for me to leave this earth, I want to look back in quiet retrospection, smile, and say that I lived.
